glee-full weeks

if one day i were to like dance, music, performance and all, it will be because of Glee.. ha.. i so love Glee rendition of many popular songs.. i very like their idea of performing outdoors within the school campus to pull people in to join New Directions, the name of their club.

and that long flight of stairs often seen in ang moh schools remind me of what my friends were once excited about. in NTU, there's this flight of stairs, much shorter than those seen in ang moh schools and not many students will hang around there. if they do, prob because they happen to see friends there and stop to talk. 2 of my 1st yr friends were rattling about how walking down the stairs is so campus life. they started to imagine carrying books and laughing while walking down the stairs... i was amused by their conversation. one of them mentioned that she doesnt like to walk in those dark staircase areas where there is no human interaction coz its not campus life... lolx...

and how cool is it to be performing at that flight of stairs! not that i have the desire to do so but looking at how the Glee people dance around and having fun makes me go wow, so cool. imagine one of ur school clubs decides to perform in populated areas in the school, that will be so beyond campus life. haa... and better those impromptu kind, not like there's a stage with a host speaking.

pum-pum-pum pum... pum pum-pum-pum...


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冬至 gives rise to Mr. Flourman~~~

cui flourman...

time to lose weight Mr. fatty flourman!

' look at my cool choco chip eyes!... see my babies behind me?'


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what should you do? the love guru is in u.

its always a good qtn to ask yourself when u witness unpleasant stuff... when u see someone fall, when u see people being discriminated due to their race, capabilities, what should you do?

our angie is a good role model wor... there was one day when she saw an old man vomiting in the bus and there arent anyone around who did anything to help, some people even shunned. she stood up and approached the bus driver to ask for assistance. though neither angie nor the driver could do anything about it, at least a small act of kindness, an initiative was made.

if i were there? i would most probably be the passive bystander too. i watch the 'what should you do' series and learned about the term called 'bystander effect'. the more the witnesses, the less probability that someone will stand up to help coz ppl assume the victim will be helped. how sad is that? and no doubt im guilty about it.

was so touched by the heroes and heroines i see in the videos. there are even scenarios where a life can be threatened. this video on hate crime shows the footage of 3 teenage american actors attacking a guy of a different race, using no weapons. many people just walked past. and when everything seemed bleak, a car passed by and stopped. a woman came out, without any man accompanying her, she alone approached the 3 teenagers and told them to stop. what exactly overcame her? her selflessness came from her instinct, without asking herself, she knows what she should do when she sees something like that. not only is she the victim's heroine, she's my heroine too.

the inspiring videos teach us to spread your love not only to our loved ones but beyond them, to even strangers. i will start learning to.

p.s thanks girls for appreciating my food! though it probably doesnt taste really good, at least i know i put effort in it and will continue to!

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love love love

im in love~~~ not with someone but with everyone whom i love~ hee

yc randomly showed me many chinese character wallpapers on her handphone and asked me which one i like. there are 孝，忠，诚，礼，义，信 etc etc... and what i chose was 爱. my explanation was i feel that everyone needs to know to love, even if to our parents, if u love them u will be filial to them, if u love your friends, u will be true to them.

actually thought of thanking gl... she's always expressing her love to her friends, even to those whom she regreted sms-ing due to some reasons. but i think it's very applaudable, it takes courage to do that and she did it. even though her friend didnt reply, at least gl made the effort to msg her to send her regards. it was this little action of sms-ing a friend that makes me realise that there is a friend out there whom i have yet to show that i still care for her, someone whom i once had petty conflicts, cold war with.

right after the chat with gl, i re-added that friend who had deleted me due to my pettiness on facebook and i sent her a msg: 'its time u shud be back on my fb! haa.. actually missed the times when u used to nag me :P' was quite concerned that she probably wouldnt accept my friend request, but she accepted afterall~ thank you! :P

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Camera, Lights, Action?

this is the line before we shout action. Camera ready, Lights ready, Action?

i'm always lag in action... everything is ready, is thrown to me, but im not ready, i am not taking action.

ive got so much to do, so much to learn as well as so much to prove that im capable of something. we are loved by god (dont need to be a christian to believe in god) and i believe he will give us chances to prove ourselves but when chances are thrown to us, remember to take ACTION!

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We Are Ohana !!!

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dream/ deja vu = past life events?

i love to chit chat with yati, always get to hear interesting things...

this afternoon, i randomly told her about my dream, i said i dreamt about being an item with the guy i like in school. hee

then yati told me her story about how she dreamt about her husband (whom at that time she hasnt seen him before). then a mth after her dream, she saw the same guy she dreamt at her workplace and the guy started to talk to her... and he turns out to be a very very good husband...

(omg, she just told me so much shocking stuff, and i tell u its really shocking... and its real life DEATH experience! she once died for 6 hrs!)

somethings random: realise my maid know quite a gd no. of vocab eg. primitive, materialistic, amnesia, premature, alternative @@

i know she's someone special and its our fate that brought us together to help each other.
sometimes dont underestimate the people u hang out with and can click very well, these ppl might have very special r/s with u in the past life.

p.s will have another post talking about this. im so eager to talk abt it and abt yati's encounter. so do support by reading! hee

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Delayed monthly Donations

Red Cross Humanity logo

The last one was on September. We missed the October donation, but it's ok, we can donate more for this one. This one here is a bigger project in terms of his disaster scope.

take a look at this!

http://www.redcross.org.sg/Red-Cross-responds-to-six-disasters-in-South-East-Asia.phtml

Sms me the sum u are donating. do let the guys know about this too!

Shall make this more systematic for current and future donation drives. im sure the gals visit blogs almost everyday, as for the guys, will sms to let them know about the donation drives. So if no sms reply prob within one wk from post date, i shall go ahead with what i have~

So do reply me via sms if u eagerly wanna donate and the sum u are donating! ;)

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TING TING

still not enough of the constantly maturing tingting... she's becoming more and more clever! she can identify me and call my name now~ although it's zhu wei jie jie that she calls out.. prob influenced from my grandmother and my sis who keep teaching her to say that! roar

ting ting trying to figure out who is who. da dong? Rui En? Rui En = ? heee... clever tingting :P

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last 2 days of SHOOT

not that i like taking pics of lizard. but they look like art :X this ne here die a horrible death though. it got stuck on the sticky poster and we guessed it tried to nudged and in the process got its tail ripped off. and after a few years or so it became like this... dry and bony like fossil...

the funny actor Gim as the kidnapper~

cute 8 yr old glen~ director directing the camerwoman

Gim trying to be funny with Glen... ha

Glen has to really stop smiling when the camera roll if not....

Action! Getting serious... Gim's shouts (partly acting partly serious coz Glen cant stop smiling) made Glen cry :(

he is really a gd performer...

cant wait to see this short film directed by my friend! not only it has apt lighting (we spent a lot of effort setting up the lights), its funny and heart warming...

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film production!

i directed on tue, and managed to find my old man at queenstown after walking around the hdb for 2 hrs... and the young actor was replaced by jason! ha..
had so much fun in the process. everyone gets their turn to be director, assistant director, camerman, sound recordist.
kind of disappointed for my shoot. im not as prepared as my other group members prob coz im more concerned about finding my actors which is really impt at that time. my shoots were mediocre, no interesting angles etc... lack depth and kind of boring. like what jason said, it's really a emo and dark film. ive realised to make this kind of film a success requires really good techniques and good actors. i should avoid this genre next time round.


got a shock when my team mate said he bought this bear for himself! this is the first time i hear a guy buying himself soft toy! the domo most prob also...
played around with his toys... ha
a dead dried lizard found after a dead dried bird. they are most prob trapped in the rooms. it is no wonder as the place we are shooting in is a super old nie campus. super dusty and dirty, very suitable for a horror setting...

my film team mates and yr 1 classmate helping out as actor.

sound recordist and cameraman.
my friend managed to clean this once a filthy room to a nice room setting~

looking through the view finder... my turn as cameraman~

though i kind of failed for my shoot, im satisfied with what i rendered to my director in her shoot. the sense of accomplishment can be felt even though it is not my shoot. nvm, there always are plenty of chances next time!

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i shot myself down...

im not living up to my posts, i realise i always break my own rule, and yes yc is right, we have no right to criticise about anyone even if we think we are right (not that i criticise lar)... sigh... i will try extra hard not to deviate to the dark side. ha

anyway, film shoot for the coming week, mon to sat from 8am to 8pm. sorry if u cant get me, i will most prob be too busy or exhausted physically and mentally to reply smses... meanwhile, im in the process of persuading my ah gong... ive learned my mistake... next time i wont have old people in my shoots unless i can afford to pay $250 for a professional one. :( life is full of mistakes, i will keep learning...

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try to make hatred difficult to achieve.

we always look at the negative of people but fail to look at the positive. be optimistic, see only the good things.

人非圣贤，孰能无过？

if there is anyone whom u think is doing the wrong thing, instead of hating them or feeling disappointed, like what jingyi says, the more we should care for them. instead of clinching onto the hatred that makes us feel terrible, why not learn to love?

石头撞石头，擦出来的火花一定不比以柔对刚来得美丽。

ive finally understood the essence of 'follow your heart'. you only listen to the heart that has no attachment. only without attachment, you can find your way. if you think the person should know how you feel, go ahead and let them know, but without the attachment of ego, resentment, bitterness, dissatisfaction etc...

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ive learnt something important.

1. i shall never let anything negative interfere with my life.

2. most importantly, i will always be true to myself and to others.

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URGENT! NEED UR HELP PPL!

Anyone of you know of anyone who can act???

The Youth:

= looks like age 15-20

= can cry

= must be free on 19 and 20 Oct (Tue, Wed)

= don't have to be good looking

The Old Man:

= looks like a grandfather

= will not have much performance to do

= must be free on 19 and 20 Oct (Tue, Wed)

HELP HELP HELP!

顺其自然～～～

i need some kind of understanding, or some kind of treatment for my mind... im getting a bit hysterical, or maybe sometimes... deep down i guess i know what's the treatment that i need. meanwhile, i shall not go into the specifics and hope that i can attain some sort of peace! yeah man!

母爱～

yati told me something that makes me happy! she told me my mum bought plenty of yellow and black beans to cook in soup and told yati how i needed more of these. i had really hated eating these beans, had never eaten them in soup until today, i ate so much of it... just because it's my mum's 一片苦心，一份爱心，一切关心

my mum though didnt show her support, showed her tremendous concern for me. i appreciate it a lot...

another thing to share. my mum bought a 15cm ginseng that costs $400!!! and she said she doesnt bear to take it, it's specially bought for my sis and i coz from the sinseh, we somehow are kinda weak (it's weird to hear that though i don't think i am, it's just that i sleep late). i was really touched... her body conditions (frail legs) are much worse than my sis and i but she puts us before herself. how 伟大 can a mother be?

be thankful for what u have.

i once again quarreled with my parents yesterday when i asked if they would like to try vegetarian food. dad's rebuke hurt me. i know it's difficult for them to understand the choice i made. yes, i do hope they can join my cause, but from the situation now, it will be naive to think they will. my only hope is that they show their support by doing very simple things like asking my maid to cook a portion of non meat dish separately.

surprisingly my sis who has been at odds with me is the one who touched me when she prepared nice food for me during our family bbq. she did asparagus with cheese in chappati (poh pia skin).

yati is also someone whom i want to thank a lot. she's the most understanding family member. she makes me side dishes when dinner comprises of mainly meat or when she knows i dislike a particular dish. she is like my second mother ;)

of coz, yc who always fights to treat us vegetarian food and gl who makes nice ohana crunch and other specialities in the making. fel and angie who totally support the cause. max who happily and willingly hosted vegetarian steamboat for ohanies when he doesn't benefit from it. gl and yy who accompanied us to the outdoors acres event without complaining about the sweltering afternoon. zr and zhuang who didn't mind vegetarian steamboat~

yc told me jingyi thanked her friends for accepting her for who she is, that includes being a vegan. i didnt understand the need to say thank you. but having gone through the struggle with my parents, i understood. i was naive to think that your loved ones, family and friends, will always support u in what u do. but the fact is no, and i got to be thankful to the people who supports my cause. and im sure one day, i will thank my parents for supporting that particular one!

happy ohana day!

one of the pics i love~~~ and ohanies just cant act serious!!!

lian - stun tio?
fel - 偷笑
yc - act demure...
angie - emotionless.
zhi - the best!!!
zhuang - model pose~
max - 淫荡 stare @@
zr - totally off!
yy - in doubt :/

friends fiction ;)

inspired by angie's post, i thought i should show u guys what i contributed for angie's anniversary gift to jason and what i did for max's b'day gift.

max's sms: hey zhizhi!!!! Thnx for ur gift!!!! Its so cute!!!! Hahahaah!!! All is me meh!!! I cant believe it man!!!

i added a die to the gift... a playful die... haaa