The Power of God.

I always always have stage frights... especially when it comes to presenting in front of my adm filmmaking course mates. I always come up with weird ideas in my mind to escape presentations; falling sick, fabricating excuses, class got cancelled etc. But none of these happened...

Yesterday, I prayed to God, to give me the strength to be more confident. Ive always tried to negotiate with him so that I dont have to present but the more I bring it up, the more he pushes me to do it. Slowly, step by step, I presented from 3 presentations in mid terms to the final presentation at Producing class.

As usual, was very nervous before the presentation and practised a few times until I was comfortable. I totally shocked myself when I didnt have any script and everything came off my head when I presented our mood board and other location pictures. And another thing that shocked me was all my 5 slides are pictures, no words to refer to. The last thing That shocked me was I felt comfortable throughout the presentation, all smiles, loud and clear, though with a little trembling voice.

            

Mood Board

It was really a big relief after the presentation and yes, I did feel really good. Last week, our lecturer announced that he would be raising the stakes for the presentations. The team who has the best FYP short film pitch will get some sponsorship money, though $250, which is like 1% of our budget, is really good and encouraging enough for us. The class votes on the best pitch and he will decide who gets it.

After all the presentations and lectures, he announced that the winner goes to 'Full Out'. Though I have expected we will be one of the few in contention for the prize among the 10 groups, I let out a big gasp, literally, mouth widened upon hearing our project name.

Even without the prize, I felt that Ive won, especially in winning myself. The prize was a bonus for us, a recognition of our creative efforts. I'm really glad and God is the first whom I thanked, who gave me the strength to go on and most importantly, made me feel comfortable in front of my course mates.

Everytime after I got over the feeling of dread due to bad things that have happened, I will make a point to thank God, sincerely, because I believe what is conveyed in the picture below is true.

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Bathing Babies

How meticulous... ha

Removing the dead roots and parts and replanting them

Dad and his babies...

    

Now clean and fresh!

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DIY Business Card!

Love my temp business card for FYP!

Previously when I went to pitch for sponsors, it didn't incurred to me that I have to prepare business cards for effective referral.

It was until I pitch to this boss of a crystal shop. After the pitch, he asked for my business card so that he can refer myself to his boss. I told him I didn't have one and at that moment, regretted not having one.

My friend suggested to me that I can design my own business card and send it for printing at Peace centre. To save money and time, I decided to do everything myself. After spending one night that stretch to 4,5am, I'm done with my design, the template for my business card.

Then I went to buy this green hard paper at some art craft shop at a dollar. There were like 10 shades of green and to select the most matching one, I took a black piece to match with all 10 pieces.

While being excited to try out, I was afraid that it would turn out bad, the ink or paper might mess it up. To my surprise, it turned out well and I went on to print 9 more!

Having done with the tedious and meticulous slicing of the paper, my business cards are out! What an achievement for me! haaaaa

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6 and half years

'I call you when I see my family.' was what she told me before departing.

Few days before she said I must come and send her, and I did. I'm as excited as her. Her son was primary 6 then. Now he just entered University.

Ytd night she cried, called out 'Girl...' and hugged me. Instantly my tears flowed too. Just one word and her emotions infiltrated into me. I patted her shoulder and scolded her for making me cry.

6.5 years not having seen her family. It was her choice, to pay for her brother's medical fees, to help pay partially for her husband's car, to buy land. During this period, she shared with me a lot of her stories, bitter, sweet or horror... Ha

She's coming back in one and half month. Her contract ends next year Dec. She will choose whether or not to cont upon her family's decision. Mixed feelings, to want her to cont yet knows she has her own family back there. But it's alright, I can still visit her if I want to! I hope I would be able to make a trip back to her home with her next Dec!

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中毒了

我好像又中毒了！这次喜欢的竟是个男艺人，小鬼黄鸿升。其实，我这样做是故意的！不太认识我的人也就不会误会我是同性恋了。哈，开什么玩笑！我真的很喜欢他啦！以前我有看娱乐百分百的，但是他主持时比较少看了，对他的映像几乎没有，连名字也不耳熟。我还问周围的朋友人不认识他，几乎每个都懂，连我姐也懂。

第一次听到他跟阿恩合作，我就在想他是谁啊。看到他的照片或戏等都不觉得他怎么起眼。本来是想找阿恩在娱乐百分百被提到的片段，看着看着，我就沉浸在这个节目中。我对他慢慢有些好奇。小鬼在娱乐百分百展现了他最真实的一面，很幽默，很可爱。喜欢他大笑，傻笑的时候。已经看了很多集的娱乐百分百，他和小猪和蝴蝶实在是太搞笑了，很喜欢他们的搭配！

本来觉得小鬼很幸运，能跟阿恩拍戏，现在反而觉得阿恩太幸福能跟小鬼合作！
从觉的小鬼那么不起眼到觉得他太有魅力了！

第一次那么喜欢一个男艺人，不知会持续多久？哈！

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Commitment

Simba is really a cutie, though he bites and scratches a lot when he is excited. I love him when he purrs, when he brushes against my skin, when he plays hide and seek with me, when he enjoys me stroking his neck with my finger and especially when he does his business obediently.
During this 6 days, I tried as much as possible to keep him company, to play with him. This actually made me have second thoughts about having a pet. I would really hope to spend as much time with them as possible, but I know it will be quite difficult. I know I can't commit in the long run and I wouldn't want to see them in a corner of the house, feeling lonely and having no one to play with.
And parting is definitely the most painful thing. I can't imagine how much tears it would cost me if it leaves me. Having spent only 6 days with Simba already made me cry a few times when i think about not seeing him around in my house again and that he is going to end up as a hall cat hurts me more. I wouldnt like to commit to this additional emotional investment...
你虽是只过路猫，但你在这六天里让我很快乐。

他们也需要爱

前几天，我又看到她了。我走上天桥，她下来，我差点被她吓着。她已是个母亲，不久前也在天桥上看到她，应该是过天桥去找吃的。
第一次，我看到她，我倒回去，在附近的cheers买了鸡肉puff给她，出来后她就不见了。我便把食物掉在地上等她来拿。
第二次，我看到她，我又倒回去找她，也想买吃的，可惜店关了。我试图把引导她到我家楼下，可她走远了，回到她那辽阔的草原。
惊喜的是，过了天桥另一端，我遇到这位大叔，他注意到我倒回去找她，问我是不是要买吃的给她。他也做过一样的事。我们聊了一小会儿，我真的很开心能遇到知音。更惊奇的是，他走之前竟答谢我做的事。他是个好心人，无法想象。
那两次偶然的相遇，我很心痛，因为我曾看过她有另一半，一起在那草原奔跑，现在不知为什么独自流浪。看到她沧桑，孤寂的神情，我忍不住掉泪。
她是一只很大，很黑，眼神中能看到她的灵性的母狗。

Simba baby~

Simba! Cutie pie~~~ This little 3 months old is really very naughty... At his teething stage, he never stop biting and scratching... But he is the reason why I can wake up early, as early as 7.30am without Yati's call, without alarm call, but with his soft purr... I have never been awaken by any sounds, even when i hear e doorbell, i thought it was in my dream and continued dreaming. I swear this is the first unusual experience of mine... Now Im relieved that I will not be a lazy mother who can't hear my baby's cry. haaa...

best friend or not?

 i believe he's smiling! :-)

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And the Semester is gonna be over...

Though Im left with a film essay, a final film editing and a business law paper due in 2 wks, it seems like I'm having a big holiday now... I guess its coz of the non stop workload that has been piling during those few months...

And finally! i get to catch the last 10 epis of Unriddle 2, 2 weeks after the final episode. haaa.. how lag is it! It was really an awesome show, greatly beyond my expectation, much much more depth compared to 1! To those who criticise mediacorp show about their story, their acting, their poor cinematography, Unriddle 2 proves them wrong! No doubt I lose faith in mediacorp shows at times, but we cant deny the fact that there are actually really good ones! and consider the small market and limited budget in Singapore entertainment industry, comparing with overseas production is not too fair.

Being in production, I understand how difficult is it for the team to come up with this level of standard. For us, it's just to create a 15 to 20 mins short film, not even half of the screen time of 1 epi. The amount of time and effort spent on pre, post and on production is crazy.  Some of our short films are labelled as TV, which to us has a negative connotation attached to it. This is condescending, not to our films but to those good tv series out there.

1. Story. I always admire the script writer on how he manages to put the stories together seamlessly. Like in Unriddle 2, with the twist and turn in the story, the story still flows very smoothly. And the play with psychology, it totally blew me off and it is something which I thought was v. v. v. novel! Kudos to the script writer! Loop holes? The story is too captivating that i didnt have time to fill those holes :P

2. Direction and Performance. most of the actors really did very well, being able to portray their inner thoughs finely which greatly influences the character development of the story. No doubt some actors are still in the midst of refining themselves...

3. Cinematography. My film friends always criticise Mediacorp shows with their use of general lighting to fill the faces of the characters (lazy lighting). There are indeed scenes due to the shots and conditions, are difficult to use film lights, but most of the scenes are pretty well lit. In Xiaoman's house for eg, ive been on set and saw the effort they put in creating the light and shots. There are very cinematic shots that I will want to copy too!

4. Editing. Very very cool editing. The fast cuts work well and the compositing of 2 shots together... The one where Xiaoman looks into the mirror and see her evil side. The editing also plays a big part in instilling fear. Be it the tight, fast cuts or sound design, they are done really well... I was trying to copy some of the editing techniques to help me cut mine better.

Oh my... Having post Unriddle 2 syndrome now...

Classic line used by Dabao, firstly on Xiao Man when Yu Ze go missing in Unriddle 1, and on Xie Lang Feng when Xiao Man go missing -
'我肚子饿，有没有东西吃啊？最好是大包，不吃，我的头脑会自动 off 掉的。’

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Sorry...

I guess most of you might not feel comfortable about what I wanna do - e no presents and ohana charity fund. Probably it's the selfish part of me to do this, what i envisioned is not what you guys might like.

I found out a reason why I'm doing this. It's a way to push myself to do charity work... and to get funds  on this day would be better than on other days as the money for the presents could be used for a better cause.

I think I'm always full of weird ideas so do bear with me... this weird idea can make me happy on this day and i sincerely hope u guys can be happy about what i wanna do too... ;)

Still, sorry if i've made u guys uncomfortable.... 我是无心的～ really the no heart seh :P

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爱是虾米东东？

同时喜欢两个人的感觉有点奇怪。更奇怪的是，我不清楚是真的喜欢还是一时的迷恋。不过，这些会重要吗，喜欢一个人不就是想和他在一起，之后就锁定他，不看其他人？

以前的我很保守，也还挺专一的，至少不会同时那么喜欢两个人。现在的我思想比较开放，觉得有不错的对象就会考虑。这样看来其实没什么不对。

女孩子很容易心动，不过不是每个人能够打动她的心，彼此之间要有一定的互相吸引才能配合。我印象中的对象是好哥们，但这两个让我心动的人不只是好哥们，彼此也有种莫名的互相吸引。

他说：‘你坐前面，因为XX说她要做后面。’
一直都想坐后面吹风的我听了还蛮开心，因为我不介意。最后还是坐在后面。

女孩子的心难以捉摸，我的也不例外。

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青色？蓝色？傻傻分不清楚？

'你怕别人不知道你喜欢青色啊？衣服书包拖鞋都是青色！’
'至少是 different tone 咯，不会很怪。拖鞋是 turquoise 啦！你colour blind 啦。’
‘明明是青色！’
（我死都说是 turquoise)

直到我逛街时提着青色环保袋，才觉得有些别扭⋯ : /

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慈母手中线

love taking pics of mum sewing...

before rain... natural sunlight... 

After the rain... a beautiful rainbow!

 The sewing continues... light from the table bulb...

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~圆缘圈~

缘，妙不可言。

Im so glad that ive got this opportunity to attend 2 awesome camps, one in Jakatar and the other in Singapore. These are the first 2 times at camps that i can eat so freely.

圆缘。

I guess it's an affinity that i'm able to attend the lessons and make nice friends. It's all God's lovely plan.

I've learnt a lot from the speakers of these 2 camps, they come from different backgrounds, from a 20 yr old taiwanese who studies in Jakatar to a 40 yr old monk with an engineering degree. The wholesome wisdom they acquire is simply too amazing....... and being able to integrate into the mundane world is not easy.

And what's similar of most camps is the call time of 5, 6am! Over there, Ive trained myself to 赖床 not more than 15 mins... Not too bad, hope i can apply it anywhere..... :/

Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu (Rejoice)!

p.s. so in love with this song!!!! ---------->

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