totally unexpected... @@

it was actually on tue, we had to present our drawings and had critique in class. we were to draw this big drawing of complex still life with good composition and it has to be harmonious, unified and balanced. varying line weight and tonal values to create contrast to be in consideration too.

i sort of misinterpret my teacher's instruction. i thought she wants those abstract looking (in other words, anyhow draw tat kind) and started to vandalise the paper. she wants to see good composition was what i thought. dislike it though (to vandalise on a big piece of paper and have the drawing look nice is not easy).

on mon night, i tried to retouch it by adding colours to the drawing using soft pastels. as i colour, the colour on the skull looked nice, after i finish it, i realise it sucks coz it looked flat and fake. heck, i cont to colour the flowers, hmm, looked not bad, then coloured the last one, screwed up. i looked at tat big piece of paper, it was 3am already, heck, rolled it up.

then tuesday morning, we were instructed to clip our drawings on a board. everyone gets the turn to critique and get critiqued. after seeing my classmates' realistic drawings, was sooo nervous and was waiting for lunch to come so that i can touch up. and yes, it was lunchtime but teacher bought pizza for us to 'dine in', dont dare to touch up liao... :(

so i waited for my turn and kept telling some of my friends that i felt so embarrassed. mine was the second last one to be critiqued. when it was brought out to the centre, i turned my head to look elsewhere whereas some of my friends 'wowed'. and this friend, rachel, looked so delighted when she saw my drawing and exclaimed 'i love this'. i was like 'what?!' @@ i told the friend in front of me to just shoot. yet she didnt criticise much but commented like 'good composition... i love the details on the head... the details on the vase is nice... the colours done on specific areas seem to tell something...' and my teacher added on its like some american art whereby the background is blurred to create a duno wat feel (the fact is, my drawing smudged).

(something like this i think)

but my teacher is just so smart, can see she knows the effect is unintentional. anyway, she still added on, if my drawing was to be framed, it would be nice being hung on the wall to see. rachel said the skull though fake, looks like some mexican art. she said its really cute...

(she showed me a book that looks something like this)

towards the end of critique, rachel came to me and tell me she's gonna take pic of my drawing. when lesson ended, i rolled up my drawing and just when i was about to fit it into the art tube, she shouted 'zhiwei, i want to take pic of urs!'. i was damn honored can.

after taking the pic, she told me that my drawing got character and how much she wanted to draw something like that but it doesnt come out to be as expected. and i told her i really value her comments as i see her as an artistic person whom i wish to be too (i mean it). and i really admired her as she is really critical and honest with her opinions when she herself has art background and is one of the better drawers in class.

i still dislike my this drawing for the fact that it wasnt intentional to be liked, i was totally embarrassed about it. i preferred the previous drawing which was well received by my friends (including rachel) and teacher.

(mum's chanting)

if i were given a chance, i will put in more effort in that drawing. im embarrassed at how one of my friends spent like 4 nights to do this while i did it in a few hrs. imo, to make me feel proud when complimented will only be when i really feel proud about my work. :/