Aftermath of the War... Scene 2... Action!

today was the final scene of 'The Line', the war film. producing this film is v. intense due to the bad weather and this ulu place where we got to trekked a distance into this dilapidated small room which is near the railway tracks at bouna vista. we set up the lights and made slight smoke again, this time for the dusty effect in the room.

director on the chair and cameraman testing the shots...

he's preparing a diy pump, connecting the compressor to make... as shown below!

blood splatter! this is a trial splatter and its damn real can!! the diy pump was made by the director!

duno what's the role of this lady in the show but what i know is she is the survivor of the film, holding on the most crucial thing...

this is the film's director who also has a role as a commando whom i assume is a baddie in his film... our art director told us that he is v. passionate about doing combat films and has been doing such films previously, and finally build up to this current one... thumbs up...

i once asked if he is good at lights that's why he is always seen doing the lights and they replied he is good at everything about film, and lights is what he is particularly interested in.

the guy who is gonna be...

and there it goes! 1 shot 1 kill! the pump didnt let us down, love the splatter that was created, so real!

and, it's a wrap! but sadly, not exactly coz we got to transport those bulky and heavy stuff, which are mainly the lights, stands to support the lights, sand bags etc along the muddy paths to the production van parked at a distance away from the film site. @@ shooting today was very short but the setting and clearing up was really tedious.. yc and angie had witnessed the tragic state i was in and laughed at me when they see me wash my dirty legs...

but overall, a very very awesome experience with the seniors~ has been learning v. useful stuff along the way... and hope i can be as zai as my seniors in yrs to come!!! thanks to lovely ohanies who have been supporting me, be it at the screening or acting for my film... i will not let u all down ;)

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Went to a War.... @@

helped out for 2 seniors' FYP films, and i can say this war film is as expected, fun!!! i was shocked when i heard someone is doing a war film as i wouldnt think that ADM-ers will do sth like this. who knows, maybe i shall do sth bombastic for FYP too. oO it's basically a guy's film where there are 30 plus cast and crew who are guys and the pathetic 5, 6 gals... i was in charged of art direction under a handsome senior. we created explosions, smoke etc at the site. talking abt smoke, the guys really love to smoke and i chua tio when someone actually offered me a bud. @@

have been admiring this yr 3 senior... looks average, another one with long hair and he is damn zai, reputable in adm film. he always has this weird smile when he talked to me, even when it's abt serious work, which makes him charming... actually started admiring him when i know abt his talents and reputation in film. he did many outside projects and even did mv for 陈美心. gradually, attracted to his aura... ha... i wore his personal gloves that he offered to me and i joked to my friend, i prob could have the 'touch of ben'. people give him names such as this coz he's v. gd at post production editing, one touch to do wonders. i realise my eye candies are people who are zai, capable, charming...

anyway, apart from all these idolising, ive learnt quite some stuff abt production, the seniors are really v. professional and knows clearly what they are doing. make up is part of the art directing and now i know the formula for fake blood and how to do make up like this... what a great chance to learn wonderful stuff!

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On my 21st of Birthday, my true love send to me...

Strictly no gifts... coz we are gonna do something big! If you are dying to spend money, you are strongly encourage to contribute to our Ohana fund! This will be a mega drive and you guys can suggest where shall we channel it to... plus the previous funds from angie, gl, zr which is still with me~~~ p.s All gifts received shall be donated! :P

Among all practicality of gifts that Ive always wanted on my birthday, I guess I will receive the most practical gift on my 21st! ;)

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How far are you...

... from your dream?

I watched a Japan anime 'Whisper of the Heart' by Yoshifumi Kondo for my film project. It covers a very realistic context, a bit ambiguous, probably because it deals with something very intangible.

It is about this girl who knows of a guy who repairs violins and is very good in playing it as well. The girl gradually admires him for his talents especially one day when he got a offer from a prestigious school of music. After he left to pursue his studies overseas, the girl felt very empty. Initially I was thinking what is it that made her feel this way, is it because of love? I felt something more, she feels very distant from him, physically and spiritually.

Seeing the achievements of the guy, she aspires to follow his footsteps. Aspiring to be a writer, she writes all day long, neglecting school and tests. She brought her draft to the guy's grandfather to review, and he tells her try again next time. She breaks down as she feels very demoralised, very lost. Calmly, the old man replied, 'To do something well, not only must you have interest in it, you must be prepared to put in lots of effort and not fear obstacles'. Though it's a very simple line, at that point of time, when you ponder deeper into the words, you can actually feel very empty. I suppose that's what the girl is feeling.

It sets me thinking about what I aspire to achieve and how far am I from it... Will I persist or will I fall behind?

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glee-full weeks

if one day i were to like dance, music, performance and all, it will be because of Glee.. ha.. i so love Glee rendition of many popular songs.. i very like their idea of performing outdoors within the school campus to pull people in to join New Directions, the name of their club.

and that long flight of stairs often seen in ang moh schools remind me of what my friends were once excited about. in NTU, there's this flight of stairs, much shorter than those seen in ang moh schools and not many students will hang around there. if they do, prob because they happen to see friends there and stop to talk. 2 of my 1st yr friends were rattling about how walking down the stairs is so campus life. they started to imagine carrying books and laughing while walking down the stairs... i was amused by their conversation. one of them mentioned that she doesnt like to walk in those dark staircase areas where there is no human interaction coz its not campus life... lolx...

and how cool is it to be performing at that flight of stairs! not that i have the desire to do so but looking at how the Glee people dance around and having fun makes me go wow, so cool. imagine one of ur school clubs decides to perform in populated areas in the school, that will be so beyond campus life. haa... and better those impromptu kind, not like there's a stage with a host speaking.

pum-pum-pum pum... pum pum-pum-pum...


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冬至 gives rise to Mr. Flourman~~~

cui flourman...

time to lose weight Mr. fatty flourman!

' look at my cool choco chip eyes!... see my babies behind me?'


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what should you do? the love guru is in u.

its always a good qtn to ask yourself when u witness unpleasant stuff... when u see someone fall, when u see people being discriminated due to their race, capabilities, what should you do?

our angie is a good role model wor... there was one day when she saw an old man vomiting in the bus and there arent anyone around who did anything to help, some people even shunned. she stood up and approached the bus driver to ask for assistance. though neither angie nor the driver could do anything about it, at least a small act of kindness, an initiative was made.

if i were there? i would most probably be the passive bystander too. i watch the 'what should you do' series and learned about the term called 'bystander effect'. the more the witnesses, the less probability that someone will stand up to help coz ppl assume the victim will be helped. how sad is that? and no doubt im guilty about it.

was so touched by the heroes and heroines i see in the videos. there are even scenarios where a life can be threatened. this video on hate crime shows the footage of 3 teenage american actors attacking a guy of a different race, using no weapons. many people just walked past. and when everything seemed bleak, a car passed by and stopped. a woman came out, without any man accompanying her, she alone approached the 3 teenagers and told them to stop. what exactly overcame her? her selflessness came from her instinct, without asking herself, she knows what she should do when she sees something like that. not only is she the victim's heroine, she's my heroine too.

the inspiring videos teach us to spread your love not only to our loved ones but beyond them, to even strangers. i will start learning to.

p.s thanks girls for appreciating my food! though it probably doesnt taste really good, at least i know i put effort in it and will continue to!

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